We saw Iron Man yesterday at the 3 dollar theater, it wasn't half bad. Much better than i had expected. The cgi was bare able. We had planned to see Journey to the Center of the Earth, because its always been one of my favorite Jules Verne stories, plus neither of us have ever seen a movie in 3D and were looking forward to wearing those ridiculous glasses :). When we got to the ticket counter we were staggered by the 10 price on said tickets. So we decided that next payday would be the right time to wast a lot of money on tickets and over priced concessions. So we headed to the cheap theater where there are unlimited refills.

But we got there over an hour early, so time to kill, we walked down to the plaza to visit the little shops. To our amazement they had almost all gone out of business. Apparently in the quest to renovate the downtown are and to bring all of the smaller businesses back, they were crushed by all the corporate stores that moved into Pullman Square. :( I have a lot of fond memories of that little line of shops. The only stores we didn't visit were the two comic shops because we knew we couldn't behave our selves that much. There are always comics and action figures that we can't live with out and the temptation would have been far too great.

Finally we headed back to the theater and relaxed in the air conditioning until the movie started, while waiting we came up with ideas for award winning novels that we know we will never write. Its fun to dream though :)

I've decided, and i don't know how many times I've said this over few years that I'm going to try and start making daily posts. I think this will help me in the long run. I have more spare time on my hands and i need to start being more social. That sounds more than a little sad, the day when posting on an internet journal is being social.

My areas to work on:

1) talk more, to every one
2) Call all of my friends who's numbers i still have and see whats going on in their life.
3) Go out side and enjoy sunlight, if not only for the dog's benefit
4) Find my self again

i don't know why but for the last year I've been from time to time in a hermit stage. I'll have a few days where i might talk to people, then it will be a month before I've realized that I've even looked at an im or actually made a call/checked my voice mail. For some reason i just don't seem to care, and then when i get lonely i want to get mopey and think that no one likes me anymore.

I think i have problems.

In trying to find new books to read a friend i met introduced me to the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyers. These books absorbed me. I read all of them in 3 days. The first few pages of twilight were a bit difficult to get through i didn't know if i would really get into the series even though i have a soft spot for vampire novels. After about pg 10 i was undeniably hooked. I read all 3 of the e books in 3 days, stopping only for work and rest. They are amazing. Everyone should check them out.

Honestly i hate romance novels but this is so much more than just a romance story. I found my self speed reading (which i haven't done in YEARS) i was so involved. Excellent books.

Any other recommendations for books i should read I'll gladly take because i need more reading material, i now have 4 days off a week and need something to do besides clean.

SO i had my first experience of being "salmoned" last night





[02:36] BuzzingSalmon: Hi.
[02:36] Mango111584: hi
[02:36] Mango111584: who is this?
[02:36] BuzzingSalmon: hello
[02:37] BuzzingSalmon: do i know u
[02:37] Mango111584: i don't know you im-ed me
[02:37] BuzzingSalmon: i did
[02:37] BuzzingSalmon: when
[02:38] Mango111584: at 2:36 am
[02:38] Mango111584: 1 min ago
[02:38] BuzzingSalmon: really?
[02:38] BuzzingSalmon: u sure?
[02:38] Mango111584: [02:36] BuzzingSalmon: Hi.
[02:36] Mango111584: hi
[02:36] Mango111584: who is this?
[02:38] Mango111584: yep
[02:38] *** Error while sending IM: This user is currently not logged on
[02:38] BuzzingSalmon: must've been a mistake
[02:38] BuzzingSalmon: that's not my name
[02:39] BuzzingSalmon: mango111 really
[02:39] BuzzingSalmon: i don't recall doing that
[02:39] Mango111584: huh
[02:39] BuzzingSalmon: i'm sorry
[02:39] Mango111584: its okay
[02:39] BuzzingSalmon: it must've been the slip of that hand or something
[02:39] BuzzingSalmon: i'm trying to figure out how i might now u
[02:39] Mango111584: its okay :) just caught me off guard
[02:39] BuzzingSalmon: do u have a livejournal, or a myspace or something like that
[02:39] Mango111584: Yes
[02:40] Mango111584: Do you?
[02:40] BuzzingSalmon: yes
[02:40] BuzzingSalmon: i'm xxxxxxxxx
[02:40] Mango111584: makes sense its why you asked
[02:40] BuzzingSalmon: what kind of groups are u in
[02:40] BuzzingSalmon: are u in a lot of communities cause i am
[02:41] Mango111584: babettesspace on myspace... the user part of the webpage anyways myspace.com/babettesspace
[02:41] Mango111584: etc
[02:41] Mango111584: Um i used to be in a lot of lj groups but i've removed my self from most of them
[02:41] BuzzingSalmon: eh i wonder how this happened
[02:42] BuzzingSalmon: well i do apologize cause well i odn't even remember IMIng you
[02:42] Mango111584: hehe i don't know but its odd
[02:42] BuzzingSalmon: very
[02:42] Mango111584: Its quite alright
[02:42] BuzzingSalmon: and the IM came from this name xxxxxxxx?
[02:42] Mango111584: no it came from BuzzingSalmon
[02:43] BuzzingSalmon: oh well i'm not even BuzzingSalmon
[02:43] BuzzingSalmon: well how did u get this name
[02:43] Mango111584: Riigghht
[02:43] Mango111584: I didn't, you imed me lol
[02:43] BuzzingSalmon: lol
[02:43] BuzzingSalmon: no i men when u get my messages right now are they saying they are from buzzingsalmon
[02:43] Mango111584: yes
[02:44] BuzzingSalmon: well that's insane
[02:44] BuzzingSalmon: cause they are not coming from buzzingsalmon
[02:44] Mango111584: yes it seems to be insane
[02:45] BuzzingSalmon: they say all ur messages are coming from LonsomeSalmon
[02:45] BuzzingSalmon: is that the name ur using
[02:45] Mango111584: hmmm
[02:45] Mango111584: No, i'm Mango111584
[02:45] BuzzingSalmon: see when i receive ur message they don't say taht name
[02:45] BuzzingSalmon: they say they are coming from lonesomesalmon
[02:45] BuzzingSalmon: see
[02:45] BuzzingSalmon: [02:44] LonesomeSalmon: yes
[02:44] xxxxx: well that's insane
[02:44] xxxxx: cause they are not coming from buzzingsalmon
[02:44] LonesomeSalmon: yes it seems to be insane
[02:45] xxxxx: they say all ur messages are coming from LonsomeSalmon
[02:45] xxxxx: is that the name ur using
[02:45] LonesomeSalmon: hmmm
[02:45] LonesomeSalmon: No, i'm Mango111584
[02:45] xxxxx: see when i receive ur message they don't say taht name
[02:45] xxxxx: they say they are coming from lonesomesalmon
[02:45] xxxxxx: see
[02:46] Mango111584: well this is something out of the twilight zone


*The BuzzingSalmon's real sn has been removed


Here's a link to explain the phenomenon

http://community.livejournal.com/themissinghat/profile?mode=full

Have you ever wanted to crawl into your bed? I don't mean the one you have in your apartment/house whatever. The one now you have in your life at this age. I mean the one you had when you were a child. When the word Home meant something?

I've just had a disturbing epiphany, as funny as it sounds I've just realized that i can never go back to that. Home will never exist in the same way for me again. My place now is just a place that i share and store my stuff. Home will never again exist as that magical place ever again. It just saddens me in a way i never thought possible, my whole life i wanted to be an adult and now that im there, i wish, i wish i could be a child again.

Current Mood: sad

life sucks.

I backed into a lady's car yesterday at a restaurant in my mom's car. The lady was very nice about it, she explained to me that these things happen. So we exchanged insurance information. It was actually funny in a kind of way, my mom's car sustained no damage at all, but it ripped one whole side of the lady's bumper fell off and cracked the paint all across it. I didn't think to take pictures of it but I had my mother and grand mother with me. So later today i have to give the insurance company a call and give them a heads up. This is the first time anything like this has happened to me. I'm trying to figure out how i got so distracted that i didn't see a car behind me but now i know what happens when a subaru goes up against a hyundai.

I love being able to pay all of my bills, whoever said money can't buy you happiness does not know how to enjoy the simple things in life.


Yesterday we saw Get Smart, it was actually funny. Steve Carell actually did a pretty good job, at times he even sounded like Don Adams. It had a lot of the same physical humor that the show did. Was very entertaining. If you enjoyed the Tv show its not a complete failure like most movie remakes of tv shows have been.

I had never read One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey.

So the other day when i found it in Justin's books i decided it would be a good read and its been a while since I've had anything good to read and figured that i should start reading more books that have caused controversy.

My god this book was entertaining. So entertaining that i read it entirely tonight. The first 30 pages were slow, but then next thing i know its 3 am and I've finished the book.

This book was confusing, when i say confusing i mean confusing in the sense that at times you can't figured out if what is being described is actually happening to the character or whether its part of hallucinations. The staff is so sadistic that some of it quite possibly could have happened to the character.

This book made me laugh and showed the good hearted side of a con man.

But for the most part this book horrified me. It horrified me because i know things like this did happen. The names were changed to protect the innocent etc, Completely terrified and left in shock.

The end surprised and depressed me and very possibly will give me nightmares. I won't post any thing more than that for those who've not read this book. I don't want to spoil anything. I'm just sitting here wondering if I'll ever be able to go to sleep tonight.

It was quite possibly one of the top 20 books that I've ever read.

Current Mood: distressed

i hate having weird dreams. especially the ones where you chase someone, trying to find them and they are always just out of reach.

I dreamed that i chased a childhood friend through the hallways of some building calling out her name, and always she is just out of reach. i don't know why i had to reach her or why i was running after her. Just odd. There seemed to be a mist that obscured her face every time she would look over her shoulder, just blurring her face enough to be unrecognizable.

Current Mood: contemplative

I've talked about this stained glass window a few times. I'm so glad i finally have a picture of it. See if you guys can figure out why it makes me giggle.

Current Mood: amused

Well some great news!

Justin got his awesome job. He starts Monday!!!! Which means that i can reduce on my work hours! Yay! Also means i can whip our apartment back into shape. Justin by no means is a house keeper and I'm usually too exhausted to do any cleaning when i get home from work. i usually make it long enough to throw my uniform in the washer, eat the left overs from dinner i bring home work, try to watch a movie and pass out ( i usually don't make it 20 mins into whatever we're trying to watch).

His job is going to lead to some adjustment, firstly waking up really early in the mornings to get him to work (that is when i get his old car operational), him adjusting back to a full time work schedule, and my self dealing with being at home alone. I've not really been alone since Justin got laid off in January.

Its been a rough few months, between finding money for rent, bills, and pumping massive amounts of gas into our SUV, we've not really had any money left over for the bare necessities. In fact, if i didn't work as a cook we probably would have been near starvation for most of the winter and spring because we couldn't afford groceries.

I just can't believe that he is going to be making in one paycheck what i bring home in a month. I'm still awestruck. Things are definitely looking up for us. :)

Current Mood: happy

The good news is Justin got his awesome job. So soon I will be able to cut back on my work hours.

But as always when you have good news you have bad news. My transmission died. So i can't take him to work. irony of life.

Just got home from the midnight showing of Indiana Jones.

I still have mixed feelings about the movie. It definitely was not the let down that the matrix sequels or star wars pre-equals were. They didn't make Indy into a feeble old man--was one of my fears--and it still had all the cliches and humor that make a good Indy film. Some of the plot though was odd, if not weird. Considering the other plot twists and themes of the other films i can't really say that it was out of the question. Magically ripping out hearts, the appearance of "angels", and the chalice of Jesus were considerably odd and incredible. So i guess this plot line was not too out of the question.

I believe it earned 4 stars out of 5.

Current Mood: tired

So for those who've noticed, I've not been around for the last week. As posted before my maternal grandfather has been fighting a losing battle with cancer for the last 2 years. Friday before last he stopped eating. On Monday morning we moved him to the hospice house. They put him on massive amounts of morphine.

Tuesday evening around 8 pm surrounded by family he passed. It was very quiet. We were all chatting with each other waiting for his next lucid minute to tell him we loved him. No one noticed for a little bit that he had gone.

On Saturday we held his viewing and funeral. My grandmother insisted on using her preacher, whom turned the whole funeral into a recruitment speech. Instead of sharing moments of his life and allowing us closure he stood there and claimed that cancer is a precious disease that brings families together. Then he started on some tangent and ended with "ONE OF YOU WILL BE NEXT, Lying in the COFFIN." Gave my boyfriend's little sister nightmares.

Everyone ended up mad with the preacher, i don't think anyone received proper closure. We're all thinking about getting together one evening and talking about moments that we shared with my grandfather to try and bring our selves some closure.

During the time while arrangements were being made Justin and i stayed at my mom's house to take care of her and my grandmother. We cleaned and cooked and did anything we could to keep our minds off the obvious. Now that I'm home and back to my regular days, I'm a little mopy. Which i guess is normal. I've really not let my self deal with it, or the worsening of my paternal grandfather. It didn't help that a great aunt of mine died this afternoon as well. I'm hoping that i will be able to get off for her funeral so that i can at least see her one last time. I had planned on going by the hospital today and try and visit her, but she didn't make it past noon.

Just in an odd place atm. Finished finals last week while dealing with all my grandfather stress, i know i bombed at least one of them. I just can't wait until my day off this week so i can clean my apartment and deal with all of this.

Current Mood: gloomy

Our female Tess has not been spayed even though when i got her she came with a free spay from the humane society my boyfriend never got around to it. Well i think she can wait another 8 weeks, besides these are the most adorable kittens i've ever seen.








We've already got a few of them promised to friends. The funny thing is i wake up every morning and they are in bed with us. Tess moves them into our bed so she can be close to us. Poor baby, i'm just terrified that we're going to roll over on them. We're going to have to put her and the kittens in the dog crate so that no accidents happen. its fairly large so that the box, food, and a waterer plus her scratching post and other things will fit.

This week in my Social Deviance class we covered the topic of being gay.

I know that some people might not have contact with members of the gay community but i found this whole chapter down right laughable. it went on to describe the "gay life style" and "gay dating habits". Of course my teacher frowned at me when i bursted out laughing in class during our discussion. He was describing that "gays are not Unnormal, only deviant" i laughed so hard i almost started crying. The man obviously has had no contact with anyone who is a member of the gay community. The fact that there is a section dealing with "dating habits of the gays" is incredible. You would figure that in this day and time everyone is familiar with the gay comunity and would understand that they are people. There is no "enigma" to figuring out what a "gay" date consists of. Its the same as a heterosexual date. It troubles me that our society is still so backward that they have to describe something like that. It isn't deviant, it isn't weird, its normal.

You would think the media's obsession with being gay would have solved this problem years ago, but i guess as long as people need a scape goat we still have to over simplify simplicity in college courses. The thing that i seriously don't like is that being gay is grouped in a course that covers rape, incest, and child molestation. It perpetuates the stereotype that being gay isn't a normal or healthy life style. I understand that at times and in certain places in america being gay can feel like a stigma, but that isn't the individuals fault. There is no need to rationalize what you feel. you are not deviant. Society is largely under educated.

as a side note being obese was listed in the very next chapter. What is this world coming to?

Current Mood: aggravated